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2015-09-23 03:00:02 
gothicink
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Hi....

I am bi polar.. i am on alot of meds.. and below is my story.. i am so desperate .. and alone...is there anyone who has gone through something similar? what happened?

So this is the story of my life up until this point.. 7 months ago i met the other half of my soul..we fell instantly in love,, he is 24 and i am 38.. and one month late we got married.. now before we got married he told me he was a recovering addict and that he hadn't used for a year.. i believed him.. why wouldn't i? i had never been around anyone with a heroin addiction.. i didn't understand then...

About a month after we got married.. his mom kicked him out of her house.. and eventually he told me he was still using heroin..he smokes it.. not knowing what i was getting myself into.. i of course gave him money to get what he needed.. i didn't want to see him suffer.. then suddenly he starts to disappear more and more.. . his mom phones me and says she is booking him into a rehab.. fair enough.. i tell myself he needs it.. so off he goes.. and one day later he is at my doorstep.. having discharged himself and went and got more heroin.. he promises me he is clean..and is no longer using...

two months down line.. after countless tears..and worry as he is disappearing for a whole day, and even a night at a time..he is arrested for buying heroin..i find out from his mother who bailed him out.. so she ships him off to her sister two hours away.. hoping that a change of scenery will help him get clean.. one week later he hitchhikes back to his mom.. that's where he is now.. he tells me that he is staying there cause if he doesn't she will not help us financially.. and that he cant deal with me and i mustn't come see him.. and that he needs to get better..and i must think of what he needs now... i am heart broken... i love him.. but this constant distancing of himself from me.. not letting me know whats going on.. is there anyone who has gone through something similar? what happened?

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